Meh

Hey !

Its been so long since I have written anything in here.

So let me think what’s happened in the last couple of months that’s worth talking about ?

Oh I know.

NoThING !

Sigh,

I have lost weight, and every ones Like, Your not eating enough

And poopies like that

Well I feel better about my self and that what matters! Isn’t it ?

Do I really feel better about my self ?

Or do I just feel better coz of image ?

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*Think* you see yourself, you look, you don’t see u, u just see fat, that’s all u see

Fat Fat Fat, then u ask some one if they think your fat and there Like Ah NO way ,Ur not fat,,.. but u feel like u are and BARF. *Unthink*

oH so over it!

“after a while certain peoples voices tern out feeling like there ripping your soil In two”

ahhhhh

I need a hug, but if u smell don’t hug me till u don’t !

But If I smell tell me so i can tell u that ur a fuck head.!

Sigh.

Amber ur a cow, love u lots. Thought I would put you in here coz I miss u and have not chatted to you for a while :D///

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don’t you just love waking to in the

morning to screaming parents..........

not just screaming but screaming at you.

throwing a chair here and there as well

and all in your room..

the main reason why i didn’t go to school today....

any who that’s all to do with the mood of my parents..

both Gemini’s

every things back to normal now bu eh.

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im going to clean my room by the way.

Yes yes im saying that now..

But I mean it,

(I have a major problem when it comes to cleaning my room)

ITS  NEVER BEEN CLEANED.

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Oh the pain of thinking about the future.

I don’t know where and what I wanna do anymore…,

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Maybe I should live for ToDaY

this blog space is no longer owned by the beloved straycow. but by me, yep i have stolen this small plot of internet trash space, and will be useing it for my own garbage...

not that by reading this your going through my garbage.lol. any way if ur after sraycows blog dont weep. its still intacked she moved home....  she moved coz google sniffed here out.lol ......... its all fun.

 when do you feel like you belong i mean truly.
like when u don’t feel different anymore.?
You can belong and still feel kind of disconnected
To belong is a kind of love…
Sorry just cringed at the word love (I have a hard time using emotional words) I am male!.

Thers one small word that makes me cringe.
Makes me feel kind of sick.
Makes me feel different
Makes me feel like I don’t belong.
Makes me feel like there something wrong with me.
Makes me feel like I have to hide.

Do you know this word ?
It hides around every corner of life!
It seems to mean 3 different things these days.

Yes…. I think u may know that word?

Do u say it ?

Its ok I say it !

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(Think)

some one walks down the street.
U see them,
They don’t act
Look
Or seem any different from any one else ?
Talk normal interested in normal things like every one else.
But u know something about them.
U heard it,
U know it.
 U then continue your walk talking about what u know
With your friend…….
 
(end think)

hey im guilty of it to.

But its so true….

I feel more “at ease” (if that’s the word)  around what most of today’s people call “normal guys” then I do around a group of girls…or…..e humm, different boys.

No its not cause im turned on or anything else remotely linked to perverted ness in any way.

I feel normal for a change

Yep… I feel normal…..and maybe for a small amount of time… like I belong….

2 feeling happening at the once what an emotional wreck I am :|

some times I wish I had no emotions life would be so simple.

Any way im giving my self brain constipation, must do something that involves less thought…..
Like looking at porn…..

Hey is that normal ?